*Excerpts From Gabrian's Notebook*

                                         Excerpts From Gabrian's Notebook

 If you have been keeping up with me and reading all my posts, you will know that my older sister, adopted my son Gabrian, when I was 17 years old.  You will also know that its painful for me and I miss him every moment he is away.  I don't know how to deal some days and I write in a notebook, just for him, in case, one day, he comes looking for me.  Here are some experts from this notebook...

6-1-2008
   "I love you.  I knew I loved you the moment you were born.  I never have and never will stop loving you. I've missed you every day.  Today, I have decided to write you letters as often as I can. Some days are harder than others. Please don't feel rejected by me.  I wanted the best for you.  I wish I could have been strong enough to be your mom.  I gave birth to you on October 19, 2004..."

6-21-2008
  "I miss you.  I love you . I want the best for you.  i don't think I am going to come see you anymore.  I wanted to take you, Beth, and Amber to the carnival today.  But no one seems to trust me.  They won't even let me be an Aunt to you..."

7-1-2008
  "I couldn't stand not seeing you.  I saw you today and we walked to the Post Office and got you some candy..."

10-26-2008
  "I can't believe you are already 4!  You are growing so fast and time is flying.  You are smart and coming into your own personality.  I am amazed at how good you are with computers..."

12-23-2008
  "You have a good life and a great family. I am happy and grateful for that..."

9-17-2009
   "You are such a smart boy.  Witty too.  You love Ranee'.  You always ask me where she is if she is at her daddy's house.  You love school.  I am proud of you."

  7-25-2011
  "I love you.  I miss you. Your playing T-Ball now and you are really good at batting!...."

  6-3-2012
  " I saw you and ILM at Beth's graduation party, yesterday.  Your mom and I weren't talking fora while, because she thinks I told you that I am your mom..."

  9-1-2012
  "Hey.  I went to your T-Ball Game and you got your pictures taken.  You are the tallest boy in your class.  I just want you to know I love you.  No matter what you do in your life or where you go.  I am proud of you!..."

1-6-2013
  "Hello!  I hope your New Years went well. I love you! I miss you..."

~There are a lot more writings and excerpts, but this is just a sample.~