*Biological Family/Birth Family*

  Biological Family

  I am the oldest.  I was adopted out and taken by CYS when I was little, not sure the age.  I was adopted officially at 2.5years old.  When I was 17 yrs old, I started acting out and had to find my biological family. It was my mission.  I always knew I was adopted.  My adoptive mother would introduce her children and say and we adopted her.  I never knew what that meant. Anyways, here is about my family and my maybe biased views, but I tell it like it is.

 1. Amanda, (me),  I am the oldest.  All of these blogs tell my story. I am beginning to like myself and trying to blog to get everything out.  I need to come to terms with my past, so I can move on and stop living in the past.  My favorite quote is, "God doesn't love me enough to kill me." :-)

 2.Aaron (my brother is second to oldest, I changed his name for his privacy).  He was adopted by a nice family about 1.5hrs away from where I grew up.  I met him.  His family seemed great and has done a lot of great work with him.  He looks like my biological uncles.  He is nice, we don't talk to much. He is usually busy gaming and things sorts of things.

 3.Sue Anne (not her present name, is 3rd oldest).  I met her and she grew up and was raised about 1hr away from me.  She looks like our biological mother's replica.  When I talk to her on the phone she sounds exactly the same.  Its strange.  I talk to her every now and again, but she doesn't get normal things.  Example, if she writes me a letter, she will invite me to do something, but it will be the next day.  She doesn't get the concept of the real world and the Post Office, obviously needing time to deliver the mail, etc. Not her fault, she was sheltered.

 4.JJ(My baby sister, not her name, due to her privacy).  I met her and we clicked instantly.  She was raised by our biological mother.  In a way, she is a lot like me.  We are very close.  We even had poetry on the same website.  She is one of the few females in the world that I can stand. I am glad I found her.  I wish she would have a touch more confidence in herself though:-)

 5. Biological father. Well I said I was going to be honest.  He has a temper. He is crafty, sneaky, and smart, but he doesn't put his wits to good use. He drinks entirely too much.  He is inappropriate with women. I don't trust him, but he doesn't lie to me and I respect him for that.

6.Biological mother. Red hair and super pretty bluish grey eyes. She has a heart of gold.  She would give you the shirt off her back.  Much like Sue Anne she doesn't see things in the real world.  She is sweet, but she doesn't get it.  When she talks to me she trails off a lot.  A lot of things happened to her and a lot of people took and still take advantage of her.

 7. I have some biological cousins. Some of them are very jealous and rude, because they don't like me being close and bonding with my family.  There are haters everywhere.  I no longer care about people who don't care about me.

 ~I always had this crazy notion that when I found my biological parents...they were going to be these amazing perfect people who gave me up, because of a bad circumstance.  They are decent people, but my Mary Poppins image of them was, sadly, shattered.